Sometimes, you go too far and even forget why you came in the first place. Na Ke Xia never stopped, although every step seemed to be walking in a dead silence. The train that travels through the universe is not carrying light, but the hope and despair of mankind. Every platform ahead is like a trap set by fate for him – every time he gets off the train, he seems to be further away from the final answer.
In this lonely journey, no one can explain Na Ke Xia’s future. No one knows what he is pursuing, and no one can give him a clear answer. And this track leading to the unknown seems to be a microcosm of life. You don’t know why you set out, and you don’t know whether you can arrive in the end, but you can only keep going and keep persisting.
1. Na Ke Xia’s breakthrough: every step he takes is a deep torture
Every breakthrough seems to be trying to erase a certain fear deep in his heart. This fear does not come from external threats, but from the powerlessness of the unknown. At that time, Xia was like an ordinary person. He was just a traveler running in the universe, an ordinary person pursuing his own goals. But every time he made a breakthrough, he felt that he was bound by some kind of force. Every upgrade required him to make great efforts, and behind these efforts, there were often countless lonely nights and confusion that could never be shaken off.
He knew that his breakthrough had no profound meaning, the only meaning was to be able to continue moving forward. Light cone, breakthrough materials, traces, these nouns were the only link between him and the world. He kept accumulating these materials, hoping to make himself stronger through them, but he never really thought about why he wanted to become stronger and what he could do after becoming stronger. For him, breakthrough is a kind of inner self-comfort – just like when people face an inescapable disaster, they will unconsciously look for some reasons to keep themselves alive.
And these breakthrough materials come from every battle he has experienced, every confrontation, and even those seemingly insignificant things. But these things gradually converged into an unavoidable problem, forming the trajectory of his life. And these trajectories, like the immortal stars in the universe, have determined his direction and destination.
2. The symbol of the light cone: the ideal pursued and the unreachable truth
What is the light cone? It is an important symbol in Na Kexia’s endless journey, perhaps representing a certain ideal, a certain future possibility, or simply the starry sky that can never be reached. And every time he gets new light cone material, the sense of emptiness in his heart becomes stronger. The light cone does not bring actual power, but brings one confused question after another: “Why do I collect these things?”
The light cone is like a mystery that will never reveal the truth. It is right in front of you, but it is always out of reach. It is the sustenance of all Na Kexia’s dreams and the driving force for him to keep going. Every time he gets a light cone, it means that he is closer to his goal, but that goal is still hazy, like a distant galaxy in the universe. No matter how hard he tries, he can never reach it.
The light cone brings him not only power, but also a kind of pain, a deep conflict between ideals and reality. Every effort seems to be in vain, as if people living in this world can only do unfinished tasks forever. Yu Hua once said: “Everyone has a dream, and dreams often disappear in the constant pursuit.” And the light cone is the incarnation of Na Kexia’s dream, always suspended in the distance, unable to touch or get rid of.
3. The reincarnation of the trace: Finding your own salvation in loneliness
Loneliness is the fate that Na Kexia cannot get rid of. The train compartment is silent, and there is nothing around except the endless starry sky. Whenever he looks up at the window, there is only a vast universe, and every star in the universe seems to be looking at him, with a strange look, as if laughing at him for not really finding a home.
Na Kexia began to realize that loneliness is not entirely a bad thing. Loneliness allows him to know himself more clearly, and also makes him begin to reflect on why he keeps wandering and pursuing in this world. Every journey of his is like a torture of his soul. He never really stops, even for a moment. Even in the darkest moment, he knew that he would always find a way, even if it led to endless darkness.
Perhaps, in the process of constantly collecting materials and making breakthroughs, he finally understood a simple truth: what is really important is not those distant goals, but every breath and every conversation with himself in this endless journey. As Yu Hua wrote in “To Live”: “To live is a kind of happiness in itself. No matter how many unknown hardships there are ahead, living is the most important thing.”
IV. Conclusion: The final truth
The story of that moment is actually not much different from the life of each of us. We are all constantly pursuing, pursuing a seemingly unreachable goal. In this process, we are confused, lonely, and even painful, but every breakthrough, every small progress, seems to make us more convinced that there must be a destination we expect ahead.
But where is that destination? Perhaps, we have never really clarified the answer. As Yu Hua said: “People live to pursue something, but that thing never really appears in front of us.” Perhaps, Na Kexia will never get the answer he wants in his life, and each of us continues to walk on this endless road.
Life may be like this – walking on a lonely track, not knowing where to end. But we still can’t stop, because, walking on is our only choice.